and it hits me, like a title wave

" i think i just need a break from you" cuts me like a knife... what happened to the once kingdom we had together... our friendship was built up into this massive pallace... but like all the rest... our walls came crumbling down. I used to look at you with huge eyes, in awe, how could i ever meet someone so incredible... now i look at you with anger, regret, sadness, how could someone do this? and to their 'best friend' .... i could have walked you up the alter at your wedding.. i could have babysat your child while you and your husband ( who would be hardworking and funny just like your father cause i know thats your dream guy) go on some lavish vaction or to the bruins game or maybe jsut a night out.
everytime i meet someone, i instantly like themm... i try to keep all the bad stuff from gettign to me.. i dont wanna know the bad stuff about a friend... i stopped needing to fight away the bad stuff about you... cause their was none... until now.













guess it's jsut a silly song about how i love you, and how i lost you...

sh.................

when you text me... i want to scream. we had a nichole richie paris hilton decline.... and you havent even noticed.


16 + 5 = 21.... but your still 16 so stop fucking drinking. your trashy, have no class, and we are NOT friends.


the difference between me and you iss when you out on anything but that one outfit you look cute in.... your ugly as my foot. ugly people be QUIET.

12:42 am. I lie awake, with a whole in my heart.

12:43 am. Watching the clock... oh so sloowwwly. i need you.

12:47 am. text me, call me, tell me you love me, tell me you hate me,JUST TELL ME.

12;52 am. lying awake, lying to myself, i don't need you but i do. i do i do.

"The worst thing would be to have wings... but not be able to use them" - Miley Cyrus

Dear Miley, I care alot about gossip and whats gone on in celebrities life. But i have had a paticular fascinantion in you since 7th grade. I like everything about you. Your songs explain moments in my life. But not like when little girls claim "taylor swift wrote tht song about me" because i KNOW you don't know me and you idn't write the songs about me or for me or to explain my life.. but I can relate. and the difference between girls relationg to taylor swift me and relating to you is that taylor swifts songs are generic and relateable.. (heartbreak, love, douchebag boys, etc.) You songs are about those things too then there are songs about bursting out of your shell and becoming you, not caring what people think, not doing or saying what people expect and want, jsut doing you. Your songs are about even if peopel tried they couldnt chnage you... and about how if someones perfectly alright being crazy... why should they be tamed... because when it comes down to it.. they cant be tamed. I alsoo am changing deeplyy.. andd peopel expect me to be something im not... and i stopped ebiing that person.. now i am my own person. and i thank you. for gudiing me... and for continuign to push the limits. keep doing your thing. keep climbing... keep the faith. i love you - XM patrickandmiley

Realizations and Revelations

I have never been one to just let things go. I think about everything, i overthink, drive myself crazy thinking and think some moree. i take somethign as simple as a hug and i over anazluyse... I knew this one one timee... and everytime we hugged it felt different... we were "together" and each hug felt like we both never wanted to let go... thenn once we ended... when we hugged i felt this desperatee holdd onto what we hadd hugg... untill finally it was jsut a hugg. i felt nothinggg. it felt like licking a lollipop with no flavor.. it felt like chewing on cardboardd.... feelingless. and it truly is sad... because at one pointtt... those hugs were what i lived for. I see my friend grace every single day... and every day i run to her and hug her like its the last timmee... i feel safe with her. she makes me happy. i like to hug and so does shee.. so we aree embracing soulmates... I am also a hopeless ronantic... and i also believee in Romeo, Juliet ( or another Romeo) , Prince Charming, Happy endings, stsying faithful, kids, love at first sight, kissing in the rain, dancing like noones watching. i believe in love, but lovee isnt always beleivablee... sometimes its sooo great.. that you need to pinch yourself every single dayy ebcausee you thinkk there is no way your life could eb this goood... and once youve found that feeling... youve found love. in 7th grade.. i HATED ciara murphy... nw shes one of my best frendss... instantly in 8th grade we becamee besties... because instantly i knew it was love... we were best frends from the startt... and its hard to imaginee... but i love everything about her. I think maybe i hated ehr and talked about ehr in 7th grade because without knwoing... i liked her from the start znd maybee... jsut maybee.... i knew all alongg. Whether you overthink... or undernanalyseee somethingg.... its alwayss goood to thi nk thigns through.. because youu really openn yourr eyes... - XM

my name is patrick miley and this is my Haus.

listen bitchhh, everytime i talk to you i want to rip my hair out, you drive me crazzyyyy, i love youu butt your boring and emotional.

your one of my best friends and i feel like im loosing you, i dont want to but i feel it, today was betterr... o we'll see but idkk....

you and your boyfriend are adorable... im glad you found someoneeee... andd hes perfect for youu. i am so glad to hand my bestfriend on to a boy that incredible..

im starting to like you alott... im never been this type of guyy.. but im checking to see whther or not your on FB chat.. cause i love talking to you.


tommoroo when i get texting,, you will NOT be receinving a message.


everyone ahtes you........ but i like LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE you.

friendsss are forever,,,

something interesting i started to think about is ... if i were too have one phone call... and i had to call a friendd ( not familyy) whoo would i calll...
and the more i thoughtt thee less i wbated to. if i was to call one person right noww... id call my best friendd... katie cahill. katie has always had this weay with mee where i could tell ehr anything or cshe coudl tell em anything and its safe.
have you ever had a friend like katie cahill? the friend where you are such good frends, their house and family are prqctically yours, the friendd thats worth walking to their hosue on christmas day.. a friend that you wanna spend money on and time with.