what happened to us. there was a time when we were beyond crushing on eachother and we were talking 18 hours out of the 24 in the day. we went from being so close i knew what shirt you were wearing jsut because you told me, to so distant idk wht color your hair is anymore? I went from being so happy... to being so sad, in the blink of an eye... from the second you said "just friends". i went into a state of panic, and instantly found all these things wrong with me that i hated and needed to change in order for you to like me. i wrote down a list, there were 12 things on my list.
1. my ankles/wrists are ugly.
2. loose weight... lots of it
3. change hair completely.
4. eyebrows need to get fixed
5. better, sexier clothes
6. stop being closeted.. tell everyone who i am
7. stop having confidence, show my insecurity
8. stop being me, start being a mold of what you want
9. no more kiddie stuff
10. listen to better music.
11. stop wearing glasses
12. make myself tan.
most of this lsit is outrageous... but its the extreme measures i would go to just to make you happy. and i did alot of these. ALOT.
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